... and other completely miscellaneous thoughts.
First off, I miss running. This is my FAVORITE time of year to run. I love going out on a cool Saturday morning when there's just a little crispness in the air and running with the group. I miss the act of running. I miss the high you get after it. I miss being outside. And I really miss the camaraderie of it all. I was so used to seeing my running girls once or twice a week. Since I haven't been running I've hardly seen any of my friends. No runs for me this fall :-( And what sucks is that, depending on when the baby is born, by the time I'm cleared to run 6 weeks postpartum it should be just around the time when it gets freezing ass cold and no longer fun. (Although I will say that I'd take running in the freezing cold over running in hellfire-like heat any day of the week.) I'm also going to miss the Reggae Run and the Thanksgiving Day Race this year. Boo! This will be the first in 4 Thanksgivings I haven't run it. I have been keeping busy, though (at least I have been when Will doesn't have a fever, or I don't have a cold, or I don't have a stomach virus... yeah, it's been a fun few weeks). Since the weather has cooled down Will and I (and sometimes Tim) have been taking a lot more walks. I've been doing pre-natal yoga on Wednesday nights and spinning on Saturday mornings. I try to do the elliptical or one of my prenatal workout videos one or two other nights a week. I've at least gotten some of the social aspect of working out with the spinning and yoga classes, but it's just not the same as running with my friends. Also, I hate spinning. But that's a whole other topic...
Related to running, (also related to me potentially going crazy) we're getting ready to buy a double jogging stroller. So everybody has their "thing" that they spend money on. Tim happens to have several things, but I digress. I don't spend a lot of money on a lot of things. You might even call me cheap. I'm fine with that because I am. I don't like to go out to expensive dinners. I buy drug store makeup and beauty products (and very few of those at that). I very rarely buy myself new clothes. It goes on and on. The one area where I tend to splurge, though, is running. That's where all my spare cash goes: shoes, clothes, race entries, training group fees... So somehow the girl who has trouble spending more than $30 on a new shirt is about to drop over $600 on a double jogging stroller. Insane, right? Believe me, I'm questioning my own sanity here. And to make matters even worse, I just had to buy a used infant car seat on craigslist for another $50 because this year's dualie model isn't compatible with the car seat we bought for Will 2 years ago which was compatible on that year's stroller model. Very frustrating! The thing is that I'm not sure I'm going to be able to get out the door for runs without it. We have a single jogger sitting in the garage that I could probably sell on craigslist for $300+ to help foot the bill. But I want to keep that one around for the times that I don't need to take both kids. More craziness, right? Well I've been busting my butt working (both at the bank and on my side consulting gigs) for the last few months and this is going to be my little present to myself. Tim gets presents for himself all of the time (ski trip, anyone? Rolex, anyone?). I feel like I'm constantly sacrificing things I would like to have to make the $ balance out in our household while he runs around and spends whatever on whatever he wants. (No, I don't resent this or anything.) Anyway, this is something I really want and I'm going to do it. Price be damned. Don't get me wrong, Tim hasn't made a peep about it. But then Tim seems to thing that there's a magic money fairy that delivers bags of money to our door...
I finally feel like I'm making some progress getting ready for the baby. The nursery is almost completely ready to go. We still need to raise the crib mattress and make up the bed, but I'm waiting a bit on that because I've been using the crib for time-outs for my increasingly stubborn toddler who seems to really enjoy throwing things for no reason lately. I got out all of the newborn clothes, washed them, and put them in the nursery the other day. I'm a little bit concerned I'm not going to have enough warm clothes for the new guy. Other than sleepers (which I don't think I have enough of) all of my newborn and 0-3 month stuff is short-sleeved since Will was born mid-summer. I'm going to be really pissed if I have to buy more clothes. That seemed like one of the only positives of not getting a girl: not having to buy new clothes (cue cheap Liz). Ugh! Anyway, in terms of being ready to go we only have a few items:
put together bassinette
pack hospital bag
install car seat bases in cars
I still want to make some progress on cleaning out and organizing the basement, but I guess that's not completely necessary before the baby comes. I know that once this kid gets here there's no way in hell it's getting done for another several years, though (as evidenced by the fact that I was gung-ho on getting it done before Will was born and it didn't, and it's now sat in its horrible state for 2 more years). So my mom is coming over for part of the day this Sunday to watch Will so we can at least get started on it. Not sure how far we'll get, but at least it's something. Pregnancy has made me ruthless about throwing things out. Basement, beware!
Will continues to be simultaneously cuter and more difficult by the day. On the cute side, he loves to sing. He is now able to sing all of Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star by himself. I love it! He's finally starting to eat a little bit better. We had a good solid month there where he just wouldn't try anything.
WARNING: Here goes my food rant. If it bores the hell out of you skip ahead. Once I stopped the baby food and tried to enforce that he eats what we eat at dinner he mostly just never ate dinner. This created a whole mess of anxiety for me that I won't go into. He's now trying stuff at least. Most of it he doesn't request again or anything, but some of it he does (like salami). I've read that it takes 10-15 times of exposing a toddler to new food before they readily eat it, though, so I keep trying. The secret to all of this is that we've been bribing him with cookies. I have mixed feelings about this. For the month where he didn't eat we also tried to bribe him with cookies, and not even cookies could persuade him to try anything new. So, as ridiculous as it sounds, the fact that he's allowing me to successfully bribe him with cookies seems like a win to me. I really don't want to create a situation where he only eats good things for bad, though, and views healthy food as a necessary evil (although, to be honest, don't we all?) The plan is to wean him off of it. Plans with toddlers usually go to hell within a week of making them, though, as I've learned. Tonight he ate all of the sweet potato fry (He loved sweet potatoes in mashed form but has refused most of the various non-baby food forms I have attempted. I've had marginal success with baked sweet potato wedges with cinnamon on them.) and peaches we put on his plate and tried a bite of lasagna (his first try with this particular food) and was then allowed a cookie. I told him after that that if he ate three more bites of lasagna he would get another cookie and he did it. So he got what I feel is a fairly healthy, balanced dinner with some junk food. I don't really let him eat sweets during the day very much so if the kid eats two cookies with dinner it won't kill him, right??? I'm really having trouble with this food thing, can you tell?
Anyway, he continues to want to be more independent ("No, no, Mommy! Will do it!"). This is good and bad because sometimes you JUST. WANT. TO GO. UP. THE STAIRS.
and don't want to meander on them for 10-15 minutes while your 2 year old insists on walking up them by himself and pointing at every stray bit of fuzz on the carpet. It's good that he wants to do things on his own, though, and I try to encourage it. It will be very handy in 6 weeks or so, I'm sure. I'm seeing more and more fits as well as lots of testing. I've had to take toys away or put him in time out a lot more in the last few weeks because he always wants to test the limit of how far he can go. It can be trying and exhausting sometimes, but he's still over all a really good boy.
One thing we've really been having issues with, though, is sleeping. He gets really wired at night when Tim comes home because he's so excited to see Daddy. That means that it's hard to get him calmed down for bed, though. Sometimes we take him up around 7, leave him in his room around 7:30 after the whole bedtime routine, and don't hear him go quiet until 9pm. Then he's been waking up lately at like 5:45 or 6:00. (Up until recently he consistently slept until 7 or 7:30). And for the last few weeks he hasn't been napping well at all. He'll not sleep at all or only sleep for 20-30 minutes. And I have no idea whether he's actually sleeping during naptime or not at the black hole called daycare. Again, another topic... Then he'll randomly sleep for 3 hours. Not sure what's going on. It's very frustrating, though, because he still needs the sleep and is then ridiculously grumpy by 6pm or so. Plus, it makes it REALLY hard for me to get anything done. This is what Will chose to do the other day instead of sleep during nap time: trash his room.

He also pulled some shorts out of his drawer and "put them on all my himself".

We've had a few minor potty breakthroughs. He peed on the potty after his bath yesterday. I think this happened to be a fluke, but I still made a big deal about it. Then today he requested that we take his pants and diaper off and he sit on his potty and try to pee again. He never did go, but we sat there for a good 15 minutes or so. This is progress because in the past the longest I've gotten him to sit has been approximately 30 second. I'm not pushing it, for sure, but I'm trying to be open about progress if he initiates it.